Candle post

[tsundead]

I keep forgetting to put one up

SO HERE ONE IS.

Comments

Re: Day 178, morning

[overboard]

I— well, that is... it was confirmed awhile ago, honestly. My boyfriend, Ned? He's here now and that's not the sort of thing that can be avoided when there are two people taking memories for which it's a major playing factor. And mostly, you know, I don't really mind. The important part is that I didn't stay that way, and now I get a chance to live my life more fully than I did before.

I just, I think, wasn't quite prepared for actually remembering it.

Re: Day 178, morning

[tsundead]

...I understand. It's one thing to know you're dead, and even know how, and another to live it.

Re: Day 178, morning

[overboard]

[sniff, high-pitched trying-not-to-cry voice]

Mm-hm!

Re: Day 178, morning

[tsundead]

...It's okay. Cry if you need to.

Re: Day 178, morning

[overboard]

[going ahead and doing that. not dramatically, though it is something she has to work around when talking]

It's just... when Ned brought me back I was just so... it wasn't a big deal!

[ugh sniffing and trying to compose herself]

I'm sorry.

Re: Day 178, morning

[tsundead]

He brought you back...?

Re: Day 178, morning

[overboard]

[laughing a little, chokingly, mostly at her absentmindedness]

Mm-hm! It's his thing. He touches dead things and revives them. If he touches them again, they die again forever. I was the one he never touched again.

Re: Day 178, morning

[tsundead]

Remind me not to shake hands next time I visit.

Re: Day 178, morning

[overboard]

Well, thankfully he hasn't regained it yet. We can't have not taking any skills, so if it resurfaces we'll deal with it as it comes.

Re: Day 178, morning

[tsundead]

Does he have any skills he desperately needs, then?

Re: Day 178, morning

[overboard]

His cooking and baking, certainly.

Re: Day 178, morning

[tsundead]

Aren't those skills that can be relearned the normal way...?

Re: Day 178, morning

[overboard]

Perhaps, but he spent his whole life learning these skills. It's his livelihood.

Re: Day 178, morning

[tsundead]

Well, whatever you two think you can work to make you happy.

Re: Day 178, morning

[overboard]

Well, we certainly figured it out before.

Re: Day 178, morning

[tsundead]

[yeah with person-sized condoms]

I suppose so. Are you doing okay? After learning that.

Re: Day 178, morning

[overboard]

...

Honestly, it's not the being-alive-again part that bothers me. I knew I was dead. Obviously my preference would be to just be alive but... I have such a full life it seems, after death. But living through being murdered again, without the distance of memory, oddly enough... I'm not sure how okay I feel right now.

Re: Day 178, morning

[tsundead]

I understand that. Intimately.

Re: Day 178, morning

[overboard]

...Can you tell me? About... what happened. You don't have to. Sorry. It's probably an impolite thing to ask.

Re: Day 178, morning

[tsundead]

When I died? I don't mind, but you might.

Re: Day 178, morning

[overboard]

I... it's up to you. I just... it's selfish. I shouldn't drag people around with me. But I don't want... it's lonely to know this happened, and maybe if anyone else can talk... I don't know. Forget it.

Re: Day 178, morning

[tsundead]

No, I don't mind, like I said. Just... [pause, shrug] I was raped and then murdered over the course of the three years after.

Re: Day 178, morning

[overboard]

O-oh.

Three years?

Re: Day 178, morning

[tsundead]

After raping me, he put a curse on me to slowly torture me to death and then took my memory of it. I thought I died of an illness until shortly after my death.

I basically came back for vengeance.

Re: Day 178, morning

[overboard]

Tell me you got it.