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I keep forgetting to put one up

SO HERE ONE IS.

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I was on a cruise ship. I found out recently that, well, I suppose the only way to put it is that I lived a bit of a hermitical lifestyle. My aunts, who seemed to have raised me after my dad died suddenly weren't fans of the outside world, so in order to take care of them I stayed in and discovered world through reading and language development.

So, I never explored the physical world and one day I decided I would, and I signed up to take a cruise. My first real foray...

Well, anyway, I was on the cruise ship and I went to get ice from the ice machine and dropped my keycard and as I was digging through the ice, someone came up behind me and suffocated me with a plastic bag. Well, suffocated or strangulated but I'm not sure the distinction is relevant since it's all sort of the same end result anyway.

That's awful... I'm so sorry, Fawn.

Do you have any idea why...? Or if there even was a reason.

Not yet.

Do you want one?

I think... maybe, yes. I don't want to believe that someone could do something like that for no reason.

Mm. [sympathetic]

I don't want to think someone could do that under any circumstances but that ship has, so to speak, sailed.

...people can definitely do that.

Clearly.

[sigh]

...Thanks for taking my call.

Of course I would. Listen, Fawn...

Not my strong suit, but I'm listening...

Don't let this take over your life.

...

I won't. Really. I think I just... needed some time. But I didn't let it before so why start now?

It's okay to need time. It's absolutely reasonable to. Just -- I did let it, and it's caused a lot of harm.

...Thank you.

I wish I could hug you.

...Well, maybe later. Visits are only a few months apart at the worst.

Well, I'll look forward to it.

Yeah.

Well, I should let you go. Say hello to Hound for me? You can fill him in if you like. It's up to your discretion, really. But I miss you both.

Want me to wake him up to say hi?

Oh, I don't want to—

Yes. Yes I do. Or I can call him back later, too, I suppose.

Give me a minute.

[gonna go yank Tsuzuki out of bed]

[holding!!]

[there's a bit of a pause and then, sounding only slightly sleeply—]

Chuck! Good morning!

[PROBABLY sounds really snotty and like she is pretending she wasn't just crying]

Hey stranger! Sorry to wake you.

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